You Know My fate, My love, My Life

It’s when I felt defenseless

That I reached for strength

It came to me when needed

I couldn’t say from where

Because then I did not know

It’s when there are obstacles

That I felt I could not overcome

A solution always presented itself

Even through the frustration

The journey that I must take

When fears entered into my life

Blinded by fright I closed myself

Only wishing it all to end

I somehow always gained courage

To fight the fears I had to overcome

The pain and hurt that people cause

Leave scars – their own mark on you

When I could never shake them

Or lose their great hold over me

You were there for me - even then

I did not really know

So when a past clashes with a future

A path that I know you put me on

It’s then that all you have given me

All that my life has experienced

All the strength, courage and fight

I can prepare myself for the flight

With blindness but good instinct

Follow my heart & soul – not mind

Subdue the caution to the wind

You know my fate, my love, my heart

Leading me to the love of my life

I know you have had my life

Always in the palm of your hands

Even when I did not really know it

Today I realize that the risk I took

To remain closed inside – depriving me

Has been more painful in hindsight

Than the risk I took to blossom bright

A perfect for me man in my heart and life

Has opened my eyes to all that you can do

Not one day goes by I am not grateful

By Just Me

Calm In My Palm

When the world is awake in your mind

When you are in need of my calm

I will bottle some up in my palm

Clench tight and send it to the sky

A speed of stars delivering calm to you

Hitting your heart, mind and soul

Like a baby without a care in the world

You will fall asleep – Just like that

Wrapped in comfort – you are not alone

Your mind is at ease – finally you breathe

To the slowest melody you are free

The world in your mind goes to sleep

Just Me

One Mere Word

Writing for relaxation is a state of mind

Times the words just flow like the ink of a pen

Others they are strained and blotched

Scribbled, crossed out, frustrated and teased

Sometimes the words are blurred and muddled

Seeking clarity of our thoughts and feelings

Maybe there are times where words will never come

Because words cannot explain or define everything

Words are one therapeutic way to express

All of the emotiveness created, inspired within

Whether it is ink or paint or textiles or clay

The expression to define – explain feelings

Is universal across medium and across time

So when writing begins with a mere one word

Who knows where that one word will take you

A journey back in time, over turbulent seas

Or to the most magnificent sunrise or sunset

Whether it be rugged terrain or lightning skies

Or a place of peacefulness and tranquility

That mere one word has taken you somewhere

Writing for relaxation is more than a state of mind

It is a journey that will be unique every single time

By Just Me

Tick in a Box

You know the saying ‘tick all the boxes’

The man of my life is the tick in all of mine

But think about the tick – what am I saying?

Is it a tick of approval laid out in a plain 2D?

Is it a tick in a 3D box that I can touch and feel?

Maybe it’s the tick of a clock – for eternity?

Or is the tick a parasite feeding off me?

Does the tick in a box really say all I want to say?

To put you in a 2D box would be utterly fatal

You would be flat - lifeless – you couldn’t breathe

Who can sustain something which is so shallow?

I could have depth and meaning from a 3D box

But should depth and meaning be imprisoned?

How can we explore all we would want in a box?

A box contained – restricting within those walls

So what is eternity? Should we even be thinking time?

Enjoy each moment together – why count the time

What about all that we share between time - apart?

Time is for the deadlines - not for our love life

Counting time – is to wish our lives away

Maybe you could be the arthropod or parasite?

You would want me, crave me, to always need me

You would want to be permanently attached to me

You would absorb me and you could always be with me

If you were a tick could I or should I put you in a box?

I could put you in a box – but you would wither and die

In summary do you tick all of my boxes?

Thanks to you a tick in a box says so much more

I want you to need me, want me, crave me

To always want to be attached to me

But I want you in my life longer than a tick can live

Longer than the tick of any clock –can tick - who’s counting?

I also want to touch you and feel you absorb all about you

Explore and experience everything without boundaries of a box

What I want and how I feel and what you do to me

How happy I am – how my world is perfect with you in it

You have too much depth, connection and importance to me

To ever be summarized by ticks in boxes

By Just Me

A Million Dreams

I can dream a million amazing dreams

But they can never be better than my reality

I am just a mere mortal – far from perfect

But I have loads of love in my heart & soul

To share with you for eternity – this to me

Is perfect

You are my soul mate – how do I know this?

You show me what I hold back – like a mirror

You bring my attention to myself

How you tore down walls and woke me up

Brought the light I needed inside myself

How you show me my own obstacles

Show me the strengths I have inside myself

Strengths that I never knew I possessed

Most of all – you showed me that I have love

That is patient, kind and not self-seeking

I rejoice in the parts of you that you give to me

Because I know that it is the most inner of you

I know the vulnerability it takes to entrust this

You know how ardently my feelings are for you

This is why my reality is better than my dreams

Because I am living my dreams above & beyond

By Just Me

Unspoken

Do I make you feel free?

Do I make you feel wonderful?

The shine and joy in my eyes

Is all because of you –

This you must know

You have my heart this is true

I just want the love I give to you

Be like no other love you have felt

I can’t help but put in to words

How I am head over heels

Addicted to how you make me feel

How deeply you reach me

The amazing impact you have on me

I see the unspoken passion in you

The subtle intensity that you show me

I know you have so much more

That you hold back

As I lay and close my eyes – I see you

In everything that I do – towards you

I love all of your unspoken words

Because you show me so much

The physiology that I reveal to you

My tears, my smile, my eyes

The connection that we are in sync with

You know how you touch me

How much you mean to me

I am never in doubt

What I am to you

You show me every day

By Just Me 

Guardian Angel

Glimpses of thoughts

Thoughts that have no logical path

To the front of my mind

Fragments of memories

Finding strength when I think I have none

Being brave when I need to be

The comfort when I was lonely

Opening my eyes when I didn’t see

Guiding me to a path that you know I needed

Maybe you were the tickle behind my neck

Standing by me even when I was oblivious

Helping me to believe in my dreams

To never give up on my dreams

Touching me so gently when I couldn’t feel

Sending me messages in visions

Preparing me for what is to come in any given moment

Maybe you know my destiny

I am sure I have disappointed you

Maybe frustrated you in my ignorance

But now I know your ways

The signs you try to give me in my everyday

My eyes are now open – grateful for you

Even though I cannot see you

I do feel you and I know you are always with me

You are my guardian angel

Maybe you are many throughout my life

Just stay with me – it’s because of you

I have always had goodness inside

Even in the times when I would hide it away

Too scared to bring it out in the light

It’s these words I dedicate to you

You know these words I write

Because it’s you who brought these to life

By Just Me

Limitless: You Are a Devotion

You are the ultimate experience

You don’t know how to discriminate

Having you within is to be vulnerable

To travel with caution is my fatality

Happily I expect to give all of me

I never want to tame or imprison you

Because you are an untamed force

You are always present even in ignorance

You cannot be pulled out – deleted

Like a volcano – happily erupting

Inside is your unique chemistry

I find all of the missing pieces within

Limitless - you are a devotion

Warming my heart, a state of serenity

Trusting with my life no sacrifice too large

A most spectacular feeling to understand

Deeply euphoric in happiness – emotions

Completely involuntary when in truth

You are stronger than death

It is you that takes life beyond death

Never easily described or defined

Containing a mere four letters

Just one consonant

LOVE

If you have truly have it –

Never ever let it go!

by Just Me

I Would For You

If I could be your PC screen

I would inspire your gallery

Just so I can see you smile at me

If I could be your coffee cup

Just so I can feel your lips on me

Feel you embrace me as you drink

If I could be your sky

I would be the perfect one

Brilliant blue and sunshine

With gentle fluffy clouds

For the gentle cooling breeze

If I could be a book you read

It will consist of those short notes

Long emails, hand written letters

Conversations, every moment

We have ever lived together

If I could be your favourite meal

I would be everything - the flavour

The ingredients, the preparation

Cooking, compassion and enjoyment

Everything from beginning to end

If you wanted to take a joyride

I would be more than the joyride

I would be the joyride that never ends

Fulfilling, fun, satisfying, fast, slow

Intense, interesting & spontaneous

If it's fireworks you want to experience

I would be the vibrancy and the energy

I would be the most flamboyant 

That leaves a lasting impression on you

But I wouldn't just stop there .........

I would take you to a magnificent moon

Where it is at it's most brightest 

Where the stars glimmer like diamonds

The shooting stars parade just for us

If you should be alone to sit by a tree

I would be the gardens, the sun, the grass

I would be the gentle breeze, the sounds

Tranquility, birds, the calm in your soul

The relaxation in your body and mind

When you go for a jog alone or not

I would be the air to fill your lungs

Dancing through your body to energise

I would be the adrenalin rush

The place when you catch your breath

The thing is I would be there for you

The thing is I would sacrifice for you

The thing is I would do anything for you

By Just Me

I Know...........

I know how strong I can be
How tough & independent
I know what it is to be lonely
To lock people out - isolate
I know about disappointment
And those who use and abuse
I know about building walls
That are indestructible to most
I know how to hide - to be shy
Yet self aware to all around me
I generally know a good heart
Because I have one of my own
I know the eyes tell of much
and I see prying eyes and minds
I know those that can't help
But invade space to touch another
I know how to be uncomfortable
With what I see returned from a mirror
I now how to be uninspired, unhappy
Because there are no dreams
I know how to live a basic life
Taking life given for granted
I know about negative thinking
Because of the lack of confidence
There are lots we are capable of
Every single one of us - everyday
The damage that we each can do
To ourselves and to others
This is a profile - the possibility
Of how my life could have been
What are we without dreams
Happiness, inspiration, confidence
What are we without love, respect
Appreciation and belief in goodness
Above all of that someone to love
Someone to deeply connect with 
Someone who would be there for you
Someone you trust without question
Someone you want in your life
For the rest of your life - Eternally
If you have this kind of someone
This is where the happiness really is
Thank you is never enough to my someone
My someone - he knows who he is..........


By Just Me

Apologies in Advance

I apologise in advance

I'm going to stare in your eyes

For an unknown period of time

I may happen to watch you

And I wont be able to help myself

I apologise in advance

For my uncontrollable urge

To kiss your lips continuously

For any length of time

A number of times a day

I apologise in advance

Because I want to touch you

Even when I shouldn't

I might happen to hold you

Brush myself against you

Cuddle you or massage you

I realise I keep apologising 

But I think it's best you know

In advance - of my addiction

One that I am sure you know

The addiction I have with you

An addiction that has no cure

So while I am apologising

I should tell you how I feel

You struck me - lightening bolt

Straight to my heart - a charge

I have been changed / altered

Forever - an affect for life

You are the owner of my heart

Oh and I need to apologise

Because I can't help it - but

I think of you even when I'm not

You are never out of my thoughts

I'm never going to be out of love

Because I have so much to give

I hope you don't receiving my love

It's impossible to contain it

and i don't want to even try it

So Just know well in advance

That I have already apologised

For how special I may make you feel

For how much you are thought of

How I will always care about you

For the skies of love that I will give you

For every kiss, hug, dream, smile

For the calm, happy, tears & laughter

Every word, every poem - every moment

My ultimate goal is your happiness

Then I know I am ultimately happy

By Just Me

The Way You.......

In your smile

I see my happiness

In your eyes

I see how I feel

Holding your hand

You holding mine

Not wanting to let go

Your chest - my pillow

My ear loves your beat

It feels like I am new

Like no one has known me

Accept you

No one has really seen me

But you

My dreams were just that

...........Dreams............

Until you - and I believe

Nothing will ever compare

To all that you are to me

When you hold me

My soul reaches out

To it's soul mate

Everything wonderful

My heart, mind, spirit

Could ever want

Is you

That you give to me

Willingly - You

That I am your opposite

That I am your attract

That I am important

That I give you happy

Is all I can ever want

Because this combined

Is all that makes me

Ultimately Happy

By Just Me

The Deep Of My Heart

You have travelled much

In the deep waters of my heart

Rowed through fragile crevices

Flowed with me in the ocean’s swell

Sailed over the highest of seas

Through the mist and to the clear

Til you found my soul & heart within

You saved me from drowning

In the resistant and lonely waters

You poured buckets of happiness

I began to believe in my dreams

Looking in to the stars and finally

They were winking at me

I close my eyes and every time

You take me to another place

How you have whispered in my ear

Touched me with your words and

Your eyes with deepest sincerity

Reached in and pulled me from myself

You know how there is much more

I have to give and places I want to go

Take my hand – Just hold it tight

Pull me in close every possible way

I just want you do everything you do

All over again and then begin it again

I will never get enough – of the spell

That you have put me under - YOU

Just Me 

Waiting For A Plane

Waiting for a plane
It's those days as always
I look forward to
7 days and nights 
Full of time
For 21 of solid work
Most important of all
I'm travelling home
To be with 
Someone who is my world
Every moment with you is
Quality time spent
How you are the very reason
Home is where my heart is

So waiting for a plane
Is just the simple means
Of getting home to you
How my being craves you
Not just for 7 days post 21
Every day just know
How special you are
At the centre of my life
My heart - my life
Just isn't - without you

Just Me

One Pilbara Morning

I looked behind me towards the sun
Creeping out from the ridge, such beauty
Ahead of me was the moon with pride
Not yet willing to relinquish its spotlight
Together they yield the most wonderful
Depth of colour from the landscape before me
Softening cloud with the hues of sun and moon
Adding shade to the brightness of the light
As my journey on wheels changes direction
The sun and the moon follow me too
Nature - a most perfect landscape created
By the most amazing of creators - one
Who does not need a face to be known
We feel - see the presence surrounding us
Those who can open their heart and soul
Enough who believe see so much more

Just Me

Untitled

You show me how to live – everyday

Stepping back to see the big picture

A mere mortal in the grand scheme

One star amongst a whole galaxy

I used to think I was living

But actually I was just breathing

You gave me light, brightness

I used to feel the lonely & empty

Now I am never lonely

You give me so much to live for

You don’t give me what I can handle

You help me handle what I am given

I am thankful for my struggles

Without them I wouldn’t have strength

You know all of my vulnerabilities

I am not what has happened to me

Instead I am what I chose to be

Changing each day - to choose

What I will become  – a better me

Just Me

If I Am........

If I am the calm to your world

The hands that feel good in yours

The comfort when you sleep

Extra joy in your everyday

Added happiness to your soul

Then I am closer to my goal

If I am like a dream come true

That you just want to be with me

Someone you look forward to

Someone you can cherish

Who will always be there for you

Then I am closer to my goal

If I am always present in your heart

You can be you completely with

Massage you inside and outside

By the things that I do for you

You feel me even in distance

Then I am closer to my goal

If I am worthy of your love

You know where I come from

You see all my imperfections

Being completely me with you

How I would sacrifice for you

Someone who will fight for you

Then I am closer to my goal

Love should have no boundaries

Happiness cannot be limited

The goal of giving, love & happiness

Is eternal –

My goal like reaching for the stars

Lifelong and limitless

Everyday giving you love & happiness

All that you could ever want

Just Me

Tears From My Eyes

The joy you bring

Wells in my eyes

Tears do fall

Gently down

Becoming

A gentle drizzle

Landing on your roof

You relax peacefully

The happiness

You inspire

Floods my eyes

Running down my cheeks

Becoming

A stream you can fish by

Smooth waters to kayak

A tranquil place to camp

It’s how I miss you

That sometimes waters

Break confines

Tears become the sea

That you can sail upon

With the wind and the sun

The sails full mast

Travel the ocean far and wide

Bringing you closer to me

Just Me

Just a Girl

A history of a child's lost innocence

Creeps out to greet a place

A place so bright - blinding

Raising her hand to cover her eyes

In sadness and fear - alone

She has dwelled for so long in darkness

As her fingers gently part

Looking through the gaps between

She sees something so new

Pointing her naked foot out front

Stretching her toes to touch the light

Checking she won’t get hurt

This is just a girl

Who wanted to reach for the stars

Dance in the full moon light

Be kissed by the day of sun

Just a Girl

Who wanted to believe

One day she could be strong

Just Me

Those Soft Grey Eyes

When I wake to see you looking at me

Wondering how long your eyes warmed my skin

How many words you had already thought

Sending them to the heart of my mind

In those moments looking into your eyes

Melting me with such truth and meaning

Laying there those soft grey eyes

Like you have already seen what is to be

All you feel all you see is where you want to be

Sometimes I cry you know how happy I am inside

What you send to me through your eyes

Pulls from within me and pours to the surface

Knowing what you see is what you do to me

How much you mean to me, my life

No one will ever appreciate you like I do

No one will ever fight for you as much as I will

Other than your blood – no one person

Will ever love you as much as I do and can

So when you lay your eyes on me – ponder

You can imagine what goes on within me

How I think thoughts of you, all I have seen

What I feel deep inside of me, poets dream

So much that words continue to escape me

Feelings cannot always be put into words

In my eyes you find me exposed, raw and free

Just Me

Treasure Chest of Strength

It feels so good to feel how I do

Breathing deeply, air into my lungs

Alive because I am living with love

You make me feel like a queen

I am brave to step outside of me

Never stopping to do my best

A person who will always care

Care about you no matter what

The strength you give me

To believe in myself – what I can do

Overcome what I think I can’t do

Anything feels possible with you

You are a treasure chest of strength

The arms that hold me compassionately

Completely –

My heart is exposed - open for you

You have the parts of me no one else has

A map to the deepest parts of me

To the deepest journeys still to have

You are my absolute someone

The best portion of my life

All the moments no matter

How small or large are spent with you.

Just Me

Where No One Else Can Go

My heart – it knows you

How I have let you in

Where no one else can go

That I can tell you things

That no one else knows

Share my private thoughts

I can empty locked cages

You don’t judge me

There are so many reasons

I choose you to share my space

Not afraid to step out of me

Shed some tears of joy

I have never felt like with you

I just love to let you know

That you are my something

I can’t hide the joy you give

The happiness that I feel

To have love – your love

Once in my life is a privilege

To have it for the rest

Of my life is my dream

One that I didn’t think

I could ever realize

I just want to share

Share it all with you.

Just Me

Gift of Ultimate Happiness

There are times where I just want to dance

Laugh with you loudly until we run out of breath

Feel your hand in mine so ever tightly

Put my hand on your chest and feel your beat

In a crowded room it’s only you I want and see

You light up my life, my inside and outside

I would drive all day just to be close to you

I would hike a mountain of trails to you

Fly to the other side of the world for you

You are the reason for the sparkle in my eyes

The glow in my being, my skin, my smile

I give to you what no one else has of me

We don’t wait for moments to happen

We create our own special moments

I have faith in my journey with you

Everything has to happen exactly

As it is meant to be – a divine plan

Taking us where we are going next

Taking us where we need to be

It’s because of you that I know

Know what love for me really is

In my past, a box of unhappiness

With you, a gift of ultimate happiness

You have a vocabulary with me

That draws me in – consumes me

A meaningful language – perfect for me

Just Me

Preserved

Maybe our pasts are preserved
Our own Da vinci code inside
We know the colours of happiness
When our hearts and minds unite
How can we possibly define 
What we know but can't explain
A history buried deep inside
Times passed and lives lived
Crossed and crossed again
When you are with me
I am completely myself
You brought me back
To finding myself ......
The me long forgotten
Maybe you in another life
Triggered my soul
Another life - we met before

My soul is filled with droplets

            - Of you -

Every second, minute, hour with you
My soul can take an ocean of droplets

           - Limitless -  

If I cry because of the happiness you bring
Laugh from the depths of joy inside
Excel beyond what I thought possible
Live with purpose like never before
Love you with all of me for life
This is because you read me well
Consume me like a book
That you just cant put down

Whatever the da vinci code within me
I am grateful to feel what I feel 
Know what I know - see what I see
You make me feel complete
Like all that I needed to know about me
Unravels because you are the key - always
To me finding and completing me


By Just Me