Sunday, December 16, 2012

Questionku 1 - 8

Haiku 4,5,6 ending with a question

Poem 1

Eyes meet his gaze
A devilish smile
Wonder what he will do?

Poem 2

If he just knew
How he makes me feel
Should I keep it inside?

Poem 3

My mind says no
But my heart says yes
Tell me, what should I do?

 Poem 4

There is some risk
For being honest
But what will that cost me?

Poem 5

You see my pain
That impacts my life
Can you keep my secret?

Poem 6

Fire or Water
Only one can I choose
Which one will save my life?

Poem 7

Can’t live with you
Can’t live without you
What is our middle ground?

Poem 8

Each step I take
A clue to it’s path
What if there was no clue?
 
By Me

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Flying in my Dreams


I glide through the sky
The air keeping me light
Feeling so free
My arms as wings
Eyes to see
The magnificent beauty
Which stands before me
Amazing as a dream
It felt so real
White wings like an angels
Like those in child’s make believe
What a world it could be
We all as angels in flight
Feeling free
 
By Me

 

Just one of many things


Catching me out and truly unexpected
Flashbacks that only bring tears to mind
Children so powerless, no happiness to see
Left in the darkness to fear night and sleep

Nowhere to run, no one to care for them
Cold blooded man with no heart or love
Chillies for breakfast more punishment for tea
Strappings and cruelty, their harsh reality

Forced to watch and too scared to cry
Strength inside but fear in our eyes
Never show weakness, take it on the chin
Secretly hoping he pays for his sins

So much fear, sadness and guilt
Fear of not standing up to his build
Sadness for the horrible things endured
Guilt I wear for not making this stop

Life has many challenges, that we know
I should have dealt with mine years ago
Instead I just pushed it so far below
Locked deep out of sight, out of mind 

Letting this all impact on my life
Feelings subtle in the background
Slowly eating at my heart and soul
Preventing me from being whole 

So this is a new promise to myself
Finally remove it all from the shelf
No more will it comfortably be dormant
Day by day I will sweep it all out
 
By Me

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Emotions in Knots

Like a tangled mess, stubborn knots
Emotions like this exist in me a lot
I begin to untangle starting with ease
Relaxed in the moment some therapy

Then I get stuck here and there in spots
Following the string in its twisted path
Two steps forward then one step back
Testing how far I will stay on this track

Lots of twisted, turns and loops
Emotions swirling like hula hoops
It’s just a knot, that’s all it is
Why get worked such as this

Emotions - just like a knot at times
Carrying them subconsciously through life
Taking us on a roller coaster ride
To places we hide and places new
If I study those emotions
Maybe knots would be easy to undo


By Me

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Child Within


Let it out, screaming inside my head
Holding back the flood gates
Locked in underground cell to supress
The tears that dwell deep within

 A place where colours don’t exist
Starkness, isolation and sadness
Why visit such a space of gloom
When I can build storeys above

 A tower of strength, sturdy and high
Stability and proud to the general eye
Exploring each level one at a time
Only very few find the truth inside

 Strength based on fragile foundations
The child within reaching to be free
Powerless, ashamed and lost innocence
An adult who fears unlocking all the hurt

 Denial is such an easy path to take
Beware the silent sadness that blooms
As the hurt from deep within emerges
Penetrating through the cracks

I want to unlock that cellar deep below
Look her in the eye embrace all she hides
Take her hand and set her free
Allow myself to finally become me 
 
By Me 

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