In the Eye of the Beholder

They say that ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’

But what about our ‘life is in the eye of the beholder’?

Who is the beholder of your life………….are you ?

The eye is an organ crucial to our perception

Truth be known, perception is more than just sight

Our eyes are the truth to who we are within

The morality within our heart that defines our actions

For those who adorn themselves with materialism

Or those who take and make what they desire, their own

Without consideration or consequences to others

This is your morality – this is who you are within

If you have faith you know the answer to the question

God is omniscient, our life has already been seen

Beginning to end, things which were, that are now

and that which has not yet been – even if you do not believe!

Why do you think there is so much inference to the ‘eye’

‘Turn a blind eye’, ‘short sighted’, ‘oh I see now’, ‘evil eye’, ‘keeping an eye out’, ‘eye of the needle’ ‘pleasing to the eye’, ‘eye opener’, ‘oversight’, ‘eye of the storm’, ‘twinkle of the eye’, ‘far sighted’, ‘blinded by the light’, ‘eyeball to eyeball’, an eye for it’, ‘between the eyes’ so now do you see?

Perceptions represented as sayings which influence actions

Which may be right or wrong or even good or bad

A day will come and you will reflect and question

In a roundabout way, your life and how you were tested

How you lived your life, how you should have lived your life

Was it the ‘evil eye’ or the omniscient eye of faith

Who has been the beholder of your life……………………………

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Window to My Soul

Even if my eyes had lost the ability of sight

I could still see you and you see me

My eyes as the interpreter of my soul

Speak to you, show you my inside out

In the years yet to come as my body will change

My mind will change, my skin will change

And my wrinkles will continue to age – as yours

My eyes will still be the essence of who I am

And this is all you will want to see

Because my eyes hold all that is me

My eyes are the window to my soul

Once they were heavily apparelled

Covered with layers that were unforgiving

Open only for shallow exploration

But you observed the fabric curtains

Traversed the wise wooden frames

Before holding a long gaze, directly into my soul

You peered gently in to my eyes, knowingly

I opened the windows widely for you

Since there has been your invitation to stare

By Just Me

Contemplate

Each day when I contemplate

The cross hanging from my chain

It is heavy on my heart

How one could suffer such

Sacrifice so much, to know it

Before that day did come

What is sacrifice to some

Is not for others

But we all must know what it is

To sacrifice, to comprehend in our way

What it means, only then can we understand

What has been sacrificed for us

We live in a materialistic world

Yet when each person knows their last day

What is it that each will regret the most?

That you didn’t stop to admire and embrace

The simple things that surround us each day?

That we weren’t there for those that matter?

That we didn’t appreciate the gift of our life?

I know to have goodness in my heart

To know and live a great love

Enjoy making every single day

Even if you ever feel your world crashing

Have faith, believe and love

We can only grow and be the best we can

With faith, belief and love

Just Me

Faith to Grow

For faith to grow

A heart must grow

To rise from the depths

Of darkness, buried in dust

To find the cracks of life

Seek and reach for the light

This is when the heart begins

To realize that love can begin

When the heart has a good beat

The soul that has been dormant

Is awaken by the beating heart

Light that has taken over the dark

The only shade remaining is you

The shadow of you walking in the light

Your soul is replenished of its life

It feels the love and knows the love

That has guided you to faith

For faith to grow

Love must grow

Which comes from the heart

Which has awaken the soul

By walking in the light – you know

That all, will be alright

The feeling that you get

You are on the right side

In the strength when in need

The confidence to achieve

In the hope that you receive

And in the prayers that you give

You do not need to see

As you are living in all

That is delivered everyday

Because you truly believe

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My Faith – (‘New or Realised’)

When I needed strength

It seemed to come about

When I am living in hope

Things seemed to fall in place

As a child feeling weak and small

Something made me feel very tall

I was always able to overcome it all

When I wanted all of this, it happened

I believed that is was meant to be

I put it down to my system of belief

FATE!

So I ask myself was my belief faith?

Without knowing what fate or faith was

Something unexplained – out of my control

All I knew was that I believed in it

Did it matter that I didn’t understand or define it?

Always looking up to the sky searching

Amazed by all that is unexplained in this world

I never went to a convent school

Yet a convent school nun gave me rosary beads

We sat on a wooden bench under a tree

Did I know what this meant? - No

Did I know what their purpose was? - No

They have been with me throughout my life

My mum gave me a necklace once

Through the charm, held up to the light

Were the words of the Lord’s Prayer

This I carried throughout my life

Today my life chooses to believe in faith

It’s personal, it’s my journey to discover

To believe, to put all of my faith in one place

Trust in it, have confidence in it because it’s real

It’s very real to me even though it’s so new

To count every experience of fate or coincidence

Really?

Maybe my belief in faith is not new

But finally realised and acknowledged

By Just Me

'Coinkidinks'

Up until not that long ago, I
believed in the coincidence
You know those moments, right?
those remarkable occurences
those moments of serendipity
or unexpected twists, happenstance
happy and wonderful they can be or,
confusing or uncomfortable they can be 

Some call it a fluke, a chance, accident
but some think of it as fate or destiny 
what is meant to be - will definitely be

A definition for something unexplained 
in this case, is reduced to a coincidence
I believe there is no such thing as a 'coinkidink'
As a very special person highlighted to me

Fate? Destiny? yes they are indeed
not all things in life, do we control
as much as we think, we control our life
we fight it, challenge it, ignore it and rebel it
eventually what is meant to be - will be!

Why is it that these occurences seem right?
right at the time when we need them
how they fit into a bigger plan or direction
they show us something we need to see
they take us somewhere we need to be
they always happen so seamlessly
for something that we have no control

So take the coincidence and turn it to belief
trust in where it takes you and what you see
in time regardless - you will see what you see
and you will be where you need to be
because this is you on the path chosen for you

By Just Me

In the Quiet

It's in the quietness
that you hear all
even what doesn't make a sound

It's in the stillness
that you see everything
the sharp, the soft and the intermittent

In the stillness and the quiet
enveloped by hot spring
bare naked in the night
we succumb to the ultimate
sublimity of relaxation

Under the blanketed sky
with the company of trees
we bathed with mother nature


Just Me

Two Woman in a Dream

The two women within a dream

A woman in the limelight

Lead role in a professional play

The perfect director’s choice

A woman parading her glee

Behind the scenes –

A second woman appears

She is of no importance

No lead – director agrees

The competition is fierce

Many more to take a spot

Tension is always present

Expectations are to be met

The lead graced with attention

Delivering as expected to the script

A play rehearsal takes its course

Cast words scrambled to the feet

Second woman begins her script

This part of no significance

So much so, she isn’t deserving

Of even a little director’s attention

She plays the subconscious persona

Of the important character lead

As the story unfolds – of a woman

Known by all as she wants to be seen

But there is, as within everyone

Another part that only you see

A subconscious which you agree

That sometimes you disagree

A persona that gives you strength

When you are feeling weak

A reminder when you forget and

Confidence when it is lacking

A decision when you can’t make one

Point out all your disappointments

Even bring you back to reality

If you drown in all your importance

So when a woman who plays a part

Which is of little or no significance

Think about the two sides within a dream

Two women - or maybe two sides of a woman

The insignifcant woman played a persona

A character which took the stage by storm

They couldn’t take their eyes off her

Captured by the place she took them

Even she was lost in those moments

A director who knew all along

The significance of this important role

Just because you think, you are nothing

Doesn’t mean that you are, nothing

In fact you are much, much, more!

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Mere

Began as a mere expression

A smile representing a greeting

Humble beginnings for a stranger

Flowing into just a few words

A voice from someone new

Visuals and words come together

Words run into sentences – into

Paragraphs which become a page

One single page, interesting at that

Travelling to numerous pages

That have not stopped, can’t

Just always new beginnings

One life to the next, we meet

Because we are always meant to

Just Me

Affirmation - Believe

You put my heart in motion

Took it from the cold

Where it has not since rested

Reaching in, you caressed it

Tucked it into your warm embers

A pulsating and rhythmic embrace

My heart to you – a rare treasure

As if it were your very own – body

You are my joy and love – repetitious

Looking deeply in to your eyes

Sweet blissful affirmation – I believe

What I see looking back at me

Is how one looks when they feel

Feel the way I do – about you

My guardian angel lead me to you

Even if in the smallest of ways

It only takes one way

If something is to be – it will be

Not persuaded, not planned

A natural flowing occurrence

Which leads to something special

Leaving a very important mark

That just cannot be left behind

Because of you – I finally realised

I existed, I mattered to someone

Who wasn’t of my own blood

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A Message

How she must have waited a long time

To deliver, to him her long awaited message

A message of love – the love of a parent

To her son

She observes his life from the heavens

Awaiting the day they open, to deliver her message

The words spoken in her mind many times

Even though she knows no time where she is

No time in hours, days, weeks, months or years
How she prays for that day – they can release

A sons life, played out in the years since her absence

She has already seen his life ahead of him

Yet it’s simply love that she wishes to send – not answers

She knows he was there for her – fought for her

She knows about his heartache and anger

She knows his personal conflicts held within

He is of course her son – who could know him better

Her son shows wisdom and righteousness

Her son is full of goodness and is fair

How he brings joy to her spirit every day

How she loves him so very much

All she hopes is that he feels it so

If only she could send her message to him

Tell him that all is going to be absolutely fine

A mothers love for her son – never subsides

Where the heavens offer a resting place

She sees all that her son has achieved

She sees the wonderful parent that he is

She knows the goodness he holds within

How proud she is of the man her son became

One day he shall know her message to him

A key in the form of a person shall see

Until this day, words will be held

Held with her under lock and key

Awaiting their release

By Just Me

(This is a very special poem - written & dedicated for/to my partner) 

All I thought I lost

Not knowing the truth but wanting to find it

My heart beating so fast in my desperation

To think logically and smart. while all over

My body was trembling, so much inside

I did not want to resign myself to loss

But to have the strength to find him at all costs

Do you know what it would be like?

For someone so important in your life

Is no longer to be – to be lost – without trace

Time was critical and yet where do I start

I will search for him until my last breath and beyond

I throw myself into radical survival to find the truth

To sacrifice myself into their hands for answers

Would you do the same – for someone you love?

Risk your life to find them - because you know

That life without them, is not the life you want to live

If I were not to be successful  –  he will know

I did not hold back my fight  –  I fought for him

In this place I found myself in, I search deep inside

Closer to all that I believe wholeheartedly in

I have fear, I will be tested and pulled and challenged

I will be on the edge of hope, despair, life and death

I pray for guidance, strength, resilience and wisdom

Even if my life should end, I will not give up my search

To find the truth for me and for all that love him so much

He will be reunited with those who love him –

Even if this is all I ever do in physical life or spirit

It’s in the moment when I felt helpless and vulnerable

That hope appears to me in the brightest of light

I look at it straight in the eye – the guidance I seek

Tears well in my heart as I cannot show them I cry

The strength is there – I just need it put it into drive

He speaks to me in my mind – instruction to survive

Just listen to me when I address thee - My Lady

The love of my life tells me that all will be fine

Together the answers will come

Just Me

No Ordinary Love

With us there is no ordinary day

There is no ordinary love – you and me

We have talked for hours and hours

In silence our conversation has no end

How your eyes tell me all I feel inside

How I feel about you is reflected back to me

You bring so much joy in to my world

This joy would never have been known

Without you in my life –

All that you inspire within me

Would not have been realised

For a long time

I was not prepared to fall deeply into love

Even though I didn’t know what that was

After you searched long to find my heart

You captured it and uncovered all of the dust

You raised it to the surface – made me realise

 I was capable of deep love

You – the only one forever – to take me there

You are love that I see

You are a love that I feel – never subsiding

I don’t need a sunny sky to be happy

No matter what a life brings – I have you

Having your love, knowing you care

Knowing that you want me in your life

Is the love that I always see and feel

Love is the root cause of happiness

You are the root cause of my amazing happiness

A happiness I never thought I could feel

Just Me

More Than Innk

One glance, a grin, your voice or a whisper to me

Fingertips touch, slide of you hand

Just you being in my presence is all it takes

A never ending chain reaction

Threading feelings and thoughts

Stitching a string of words

Into lines that mean much more

Than just the ink that bleeds

From the tip of a pen

At the beginning of each line, I’m reliving each moment

Every pause is a deep breath and my heart jumping

A comma, a hyphen – a smile, a giggle, a gift of happiness

Love how you just fulfill me with these feelings and thoughts

You always know how to make my day

Only you suspend me to a place where I am the most vulnerable

Even as the words are born flowing through my body

Out to the very lengths of my finger tips

Imprinted on them is all that I feel inside of me

I know that what I feel does not always need words

But I can’t help but show you in my actions

How you move me to emotions that I cannot control

In the most private of all moments that I am with you

I feel your love surround me all the time

Even in the distance you are still with me

I would cross the world just to be with you

Just Me

Emergence

I once confined my true self from myself

I couldn’t remember me being – just me

You removed me from an isolated loneliness

My heart alerted me to your presence

Before I even knew it – I had to know you

You have extinguished defenses and walls

Pulling out of me long hidden stories

You aimed to find the layers of my onion

Right down to the very deeper core

You squeeze me with your warmth

Injected me with lots of your happiness

I feel I can sweep away my silences

Share with you all of me that I have

You have aimed at my heart centre

You have reached well beyond that

What you give me is more than love

It’s like a hard wired connection

Directly to my soul twenty four - seven

You enlighten me and ignite me

I have found a spirit within me

That I wanted but never knew I had

See all of the places you have taken me

All that you have awaken within me

Emergence and transformation

You have my lifetime ellegiance

That I would gladly carve in stone

Just Me

Love Note: This is Love - This is You

It’s the deepest red of rose petals that you ignite within me

It’s the hottest fire that never burns away – This is love

It’s the whitest of white, like the majestic white stallion

That lets me ride him, galloping across landscapes to places so free

He grows wings and becomes Pegasus gliding me to the skies

The light of happiness and the rush of adrenalin he gives - This is love

It’s the many hues of blue from the skies and the sea that you give me

Confidence to evolve to the woman I was always meant to be – simply me.

The mystery of new and intense emotions behind high tides and rolling seas

Changing my world but it feels right, I absolutely trust you with my life

The fluffy clouds thin out revealing the bluest skies and brilliant seas

A most welcoming and never ending enchanting view - This is love

The orange so bright and sweet to my lips, refreshing and full of vitality

It’s flesh is warmth, goodness, positivity and health, you want more

He who has warmth, vitality and goodness to the core is a man I want to keep.

He is full of love and enjoys to give happiness more than he receives

He is generous to love those closest and most important to him, this is you

You are happy and you ooze happiness to me - You are love – This is love.

The amethyst soft and peaceful, hidden amongst the sparkles and metal

Full of spirit, a calmness and tranquility, full of patience and commitment

It’s the man who is not afraid to reveal himself be himself to those he chooses

The man who has a strong spirit that guides his morals in everyday life.

A man who stands by his feelings, not swayed by short-term desires or goals

He who stays true to himself, the ability to be calm and peaceful even in chaos

He shares with me his spirit, through everything lived, seen and done you stay true

This is resilience, strength and commitment, you show this to me all the time

If I am the sparkle and metal, I dim myself so you may shine because it’s only you

Who gives me all of the sparkle, so much brightness and happiness - This is love


Just Me

You Are My Home

It’s in your eyes I want to lose myself

Your voice I know amongst 1000 voices

How I feel with you is to be my lifetime

If you knew how happy you make me

I never thought anyone could do this

You made me realize how lonely I was

Then I realized the dream I once had

Of someone who could change my world

Who could unlock my inner shackles

Change my world the way you have done

Someone in this world who is perfect for me

Someone who appreciates and loves me

You are my home - home is where my heart is

No roof, mod cons or materialisms can do this

You are my heart and you are my home

It’s in you that I found the missing pieces of me

You are the key to my sense of completion

Of finding who I am and who I am meant to be

I’ve been waiting for you all of my life

It’s never been as clear as it is in this year

That my destiny is completely with you

Just Me

When You Say........

What is it that stops me in mid breathe

That rises from my stomach above my head

It is in my smile, within my eyes

It makes me flutter, thump, pound 

It even brings me to an utter silence

I have cried for you, laughed, giggled

I have even been utterly amazed

Are there no bounds?

Are there no limits?

In every gap, pause, full stop, sentence

Paragraph, chapter & volume

I have never known such presence

Of this most difficult to describe entity

That I willingly let myself be hooked

I let you lead me to the depths of myself

Looking in at myself from the outside

Sometimes so difficult to understand

Looking at myself from the inside, out

Sometimes so difficult to explain

This is it – when you say you love me

This happens to me all at once

I feel like the world around me stops

Everything within me is intensified

Just imagine how I feel all the time

Knowing how you love me

Without you saying one single word

This is no entity – this is love

My love is YOU

By Just Me

All the Little Things

I could write about how I love you

In as many different ways I know

But it’s all the little things you do

Building a sky full of memories

For both me and for you

I really enjoy how you look to me

With your cheeky grin and eyes

You know how that makes me smile

I could stare at you all the while

How much of a gentleman you are

All the things I really appreciate

An open door and a helping hand

Always a fine seat of your choosing

I will always love your gentleman ways

How you embellish in pampering me

With you delightful wickedness

You know all the ways to be happy

Yet I love that you don’t stop there

Since when is reaching the skies a limit

How when you take my hand in yours

Fingers and palms firmly entwined

You want me to know and feel you

Your presence to be completely there

That you know how to make quality time

Everything we do regardless of how small

I enjoy just being part of the task with you

Feeling wanted and important to you

Just laying together in silence, still

Looking at you and you looking at me

All that you see in me and all I see in you

How you trace my profile with your fingers

You have the magic touch to relax me

Caressing my soul with your warmth

Relinquish the inner walls of tough

Happily I open the floodgates

How you move me in so many ways

Your timing, your observations of me

Compassion, respect and awareness

Only you will truly know me in this life

I gladly follow you as you are my fate


Just Me

Visit You in Your Sleep

At night I wish to go to you in sleep

So I may gently lay with you

Be in your dreams

At night I wish to caress you with my calm

So that you may feel me with you

To part your hyperactive mind

That just won’t let you sleep

I shall come to your dreams

To ease the longing you feel

My company you seek

The night shall make it right

Pay for the hours it steals

Would you wish me to visit

Be there with you in your sleep

A man of strength coated in amour

Who fights time, who fights the night

Hold me close – let the armour fall away

Here I am – I’m not far away 

Always with you even if not in sight

As I close my eyes each and every night

Just Me

Between the Covers: Rocks & the Sea

Do you know what it is to feel it

To carry it with you all the time

How it palpitates and ignites

Imagine the galaxy of stars

Reaching for you all at once

The tide is low - quiet, listening

How the night was just for us

Like no one else existed

We sat between the covers

Of the rocks and the sea

The moon and gentle breeze

Taste of Champagne to the lips

The surroundings – the moment

Intensifies all that is bound within

You presented me your intention

Taking it and placing it - trembling within

To wear with me until the end of time

Best friend and partner for life

How you take me to the unexpected

My heart pounding, my mind spinning

Yet amongst it all I knew it was so right

Your heart I hold within my heart

What I feel within mine travels to yours

How you feel within your heart

Floods back to mine – connected

No depth will I drown or air too shallow

The tide was low, quiet and listening

As the first tears welled from my eyes

The breeze carried them away to the sea

It felt my happiness as did the stars in the sky

This night was ours and always to keep

I always carry your heart within me

Just me