You Know My fate, My love, My Life

It’s when I felt defenseless

That I reached for strength

It came to me when needed

I couldn’t say from where

Because then I did not know

It’s when there are obstacles

That I felt I could not overcome

A solution always presented itself

Even through the frustration

The journey that I must take

When fears entered into my life

Blinded by fright I closed myself

Only wishing it all to end

I somehow always gained courage

To fight the fears I had to overcome

The pain and hurt that people cause

Leave scars – their own mark on you

When I could never shake them

Or lose their great hold over me

You were there for me - even then

I did not really know

So when a past clashes with a future

A path that I know you put me on

It’s then that all you have given me

All that my life has experienced

All the strength, courage and fight

I can prepare myself for the flight

With blindness but good instinct

Follow my heart & soul – not mind

Subdue the caution to the wind

You know my fate, my love, my heart

Leading me to the love of my life

I know you have had my life

Always in the palm of your hands

Even when I did not really know it

Today I realize that the risk I took

To remain closed inside – depriving me

Has been more painful in hindsight

Than the risk I took to blossom bright

A perfect for me man in my heart and life

Has opened my eyes to all that you can do

Not one day goes by I am not grateful

By Just Me

Calm In My Palm

When the world is awake in your mind

When you are in need of my calm

I will bottle some up in my palm

Clench tight and send it to the sky

A speed of stars delivering calm to you

Hitting your heart, mind and soul

Like a baby without a care in the world

You will fall asleep – Just like that

Wrapped in comfort – you are not alone

Your mind is at ease – finally you breathe

To the slowest melody you are free

The world in your mind goes to sleep

Just Me

One Mere Word

Writing for relaxation is a state of mind

Times the words just flow like the ink of a pen

Others they are strained and blotched

Scribbled, crossed out, frustrated and teased

Sometimes the words are blurred and muddled

Seeking clarity of our thoughts and feelings

Maybe there are times where words will never come

Because words cannot explain or define everything

Words are one therapeutic way to express

All of the emotiveness created, inspired within

Whether it is ink or paint or textiles or clay

The expression to define – explain feelings

Is universal across medium and across time

So when writing begins with a mere one word

Who knows where that one word will take you

A journey back in time, over turbulent seas

Or to the most magnificent sunrise or sunset

Whether it be rugged terrain or lightning skies

Or a place of peacefulness and tranquility

That mere one word has taken you somewhere

Writing for relaxation is more than a state of mind

It is a journey that will be unique every single time

By Just Me

Tick in a Box

You know the saying ‘tick all the boxes’

The man of my life is the tick in all of mine

But think about the tick – what am I saying?

Is it a tick of approval laid out in a plain 2D?

Is it a tick in a 3D box that I can touch and feel?

Maybe it’s the tick of a clock – for eternity?

Or is the tick a parasite feeding off me?

Does the tick in a box really say all I want to say?

To put you in a 2D box would be utterly fatal

You would be flat - lifeless – you couldn’t breathe

Who can sustain something which is so shallow?

I could have depth and meaning from a 3D box

But should depth and meaning be imprisoned?

How can we explore all we would want in a box?

A box contained – restricting within those walls

So what is eternity? Should we even be thinking time?

Enjoy each moment together – why count the time

What about all that we share between time - apart?

Time is for the deadlines - not for our love life

Counting time – is to wish our lives away

Maybe you could be the arthropod or parasite?

You would want me, crave me, to always need me

You would want to be permanently attached to me

You would absorb me and you could always be with me

If you were a tick could I or should I put you in a box?

I could put you in a box – but you would wither and die

In summary do you tick all of my boxes?

Thanks to you a tick in a box says so much more

I want you to need me, want me, crave me

To always want to be attached to me

But I want you in my life longer than a tick can live

Longer than the tick of any clock –can tick - who’s counting?

I also want to touch you and feel you absorb all about you

Explore and experience everything without boundaries of a box

What I want and how I feel and what you do to me

How happy I am – how my world is perfect with you in it

You have too much depth, connection and importance to me

To ever be summarized by ticks in boxes

By Just Me

A Million Dreams

I can dream a million amazing dreams

But they can never be better than my reality

I am just a mere mortal – far from perfect

But I have loads of love in my heart & soul

To share with you for eternity – this to me

Is perfect

You are my soul mate – how do I know this?

You show me what I hold back – like a mirror

You bring my attention to myself

How you tore down walls and woke me up

Brought the light I needed inside myself

How you show me my own obstacles

Show me the strengths I have inside myself

Strengths that I never knew I possessed

Most of all – you showed me that I have love

That is patient, kind and not self-seeking

I rejoice in the parts of you that you give to me

Because I know that it is the most inner of you

I know the vulnerability it takes to entrust this

You know how ardently my feelings are for you

This is why my reality is better than my dreams

Because I am living my dreams above & beyond

By Just Me

Unspoken

Do I make you feel free?

Do I make you feel wonderful?

The shine and joy in my eyes

Is all because of you –

This you must know

You have my heart this is true

I just want the love I give to you

Be like no other love you have felt

I can’t help but put in to words

How I am head over heels

Addicted to how you make me feel

How deeply you reach me

The amazing impact you have on me

I see the unspoken passion in you

The subtle intensity that you show me

I know you have so much more

That you hold back

As I lay and close my eyes – I see you

In everything that I do – towards you

I love all of your unspoken words

Because you show me so much

The physiology that I reveal to you

My tears, my smile, my eyes

The connection that we are in sync with

You know how you touch me

How much you mean to me

I am never in doubt

What I am to you

You show me every day

By Just Me 

Guardian Angel

Glimpses of thoughts

Thoughts that have no logical path

To the front of my mind

Fragments of memories

Finding strength when I think I have none

Being brave when I need to be

The comfort when I was lonely

Opening my eyes when I didn’t see

Guiding me to a path that you know I needed

Maybe you were the tickle behind my neck

Standing by me even when I was oblivious

Helping me to believe in my dreams

To never give up on my dreams

Touching me so gently when I couldn’t feel

Sending me messages in visions

Preparing me for what is to come in any given moment

Maybe you know my destiny

I am sure I have disappointed you

Maybe frustrated you in my ignorance

But now I know your ways

The signs you try to give me in my everyday

My eyes are now open – grateful for you

Even though I cannot see you

I do feel you and I know you are always with me

You are my guardian angel

Maybe you are many throughout my life

Just stay with me – it’s because of you

I have always had goodness inside

Even in the times when I would hide it away

Too scared to bring it out in the light

It’s these words I dedicate to you

You know these words I write

Because it’s you who brought these to life

By Just Me

Limitless: You Are a Devotion

You are the ultimate experience

You don’t know how to discriminate

Having you within is to be vulnerable

To travel with caution is my fatality

Happily I expect to give all of me

I never want to tame or imprison you

Because you are an untamed force

You are always present even in ignorance

You cannot be pulled out – deleted

Like a volcano – happily erupting

Inside is your unique chemistry

I find all of the missing pieces within

Limitless - you are a devotion

Warming my heart, a state of serenity

Trusting with my life no sacrifice too large

A most spectacular feeling to understand

Deeply euphoric in happiness – emotions

Completely involuntary when in truth

You are stronger than death

It is you that takes life beyond death

Never easily described or defined

Containing a mere four letters

Just one consonant

LOVE

If you have truly have it –

Never ever let it go!

by Just Me