All I thought I lost

Not knowing the truth but wanting to find it

My heart beating so fast in my desperation

To think logically and smart. while all over

My body was trembling, so much inside

I did not want to resign myself to loss

But to have the strength to find him at all costs

Do you know what it would be like?

For someone so important in your life

Is no longer to be – to be lost – without trace

Time was critical and yet where do I start

I will search for him until my last breath and beyond

I throw myself into radical survival to find the truth

To sacrifice myself into their hands for answers

Would you do the same – for someone you love?

Risk your life to find them - because you know

That life without them, is not the life you want to live

If I were not to be successful  –  he will know

I did not hold back my fight  –  I fought for him

In this place I found myself in, I search deep inside

Closer to all that I believe wholeheartedly in

I have fear, I will be tested and pulled and challenged

I will be on the edge of hope, despair, life and death

I pray for guidance, strength, resilience and wisdom

Even if my life should end, I will not give up my search

To find the truth for me and for all that love him so much

He will be reunited with those who love him –

Even if this is all I ever do in physical life or spirit

It’s in the moment when I felt helpless and vulnerable

That hope appears to me in the brightest of light

I look at it straight in the eye – the guidance I seek

Tears well in my heart as I cannot show them I cry

The strength is there – I just need it put it into drive

He speaks to me in my mind – instruction to survive

Just listen to me when I address thee - My Lady

The love of my life tells me that all will be fine

Together the answers will come

Just Me